"Meaningless"

I woke up and then came this day
When all of my feeling flew away,
Without them I could clearly see,
That there’s no religion for me.

Tell me where is your god?
Don’t you think that this is odd?
Millions of people pray,
But do they know that their world will decay?

People don’t realize that there is no hope,
Their lives are like an incised rope.
Soon their world will snap,
And then they will have to fill that empty gap.

They will have to do on their own
Because without their god they are all alone.
Stop wasting your time
And start to climb.

There’s a long journey to be made
And don’t you dare to be afraid.
It won’t be an easy way,
For some things you will have to pay.



"Wandering Soul"

Maybe my body is dead,
But my soul has fled.
It will wander all around,
Until my death will be crowned.

I thought it was a tragic scene,
But it was just another routine.
Killing, slaughtering people all around,
It was great until there was something I have found.

It was someone I knew,
Oh my god what did I do?
My wife and son have been killed.
All the blood that I’ve spilled

I can ensure that someone will pay
And I will make him pray.
No one will stand in my way
Even if I will have to kill and slay.

My heart is screaming for revenge,
I will do all the necessary to avenge.
It was almost an easy path to achieve,
Maybe because I am so naive?

No one could stand in my path,
They all were the witnesses of my wrath.
From the dead only one has been left
And he will pay for what he has theft

As soon as I had the chance,
My heart felt the tip of the lance.
All of this was just for nothing?
I see how the blood from the lance is dropping.

With the last strength that I had
I pierced his heart with a gad.
Before I died he told to me,
That it was planned very carefully.

As how ironic as it seems
I died but that bastard lives.
Since then I wander all around,
Hopping that the truth will be found.



"Demolition"

As I try to get some sleep
The fear strikes me somewhere deep.
All the thoughts shake me up
Till they reach my top.

I can’t stop thinking about it,
Like there is something in my life that won’t fit,
It’s tearing me apart
Like there’s an empty space in my heart.

As I try to find an answer
It drags me much deeper,
Where there’s no light at the bottom,
Feeling all over my body the venom.

It is poisoning my life
Like a sharpen knife
Trying to cut a stone,
I feel coldhearted and alone.

And it will be like this forever,
As I try to fight it, it screams “Never!!!”
It always takes defeat of me
And all what I can do is to flee.



"Confusion"

They think they know me but they don’t,
They try to understand me but they won’t,
I don’t expect anything from them
That’s why I won’t condemn.

Living as it is I try to get it right,
But only what I can do for know is to write.
Spreading my feelings all around
I feel there’s nobody true to be found.

Everyone knows what they want
But I can’t even see the answer right in front
I fell that I’m totally lost,
Dying in the sun like the winter frost.

I don’t even know if I belong here
Nobody will even notice if I vanish like a tear.
Nobody really cares about me
So I rather go somewhere or even flee

Maybe there I will find my inner peace
And try to get rid of something that won’t release.
So I could go further without anything I need less,
But before that I have to clean my inner mess.



"The way it has to be"

I always wondered why my life is like a pile of shit,
That always falls in to a bottomless pit.
What did I do to deserve this?
What do I have to do to find the bliss?

All my life things went wrong,
With every day the pressure grows strong
Like something is pushing me down
And with time I will completely drown.

As I try to survive this mess
Things don’t get better or less
With every day they get worst
Like a charge that soon will burst.

It all happens that quick,
Like a bad joke or a trick
And I try to keep up, but I can’t
That’s why my life starts rot like a plant.

Don’t even try to help me
Cause there is something you won’t see
That I will be standing on my knee
Cause I will fight alone and never flee.

I will never accept help from you
I rather solve things alone without a clue
Of what do I really have to do
To make things better without any of you.



"Memories"

I presume that nothing will change,
Only that something will stretch the range
Between you and me
And probably we will never see
Each other ever again,
That’s why we will have to deal the pain.

People will start to forget,
The people who they had once met,
And spent their lives together
Hopping that they will stay forever,
But that all bullshit, that’s what I think,
It will all happen in a blink.

They will scatter all around
Like quicksilver all over the ground.
To make their life much better
Not even hopping that one day
They might receive a letter
From their closest friend.

Maybe they will answer back
Or will throw it away and hit the sack
And forget about it in the morning.
And start the day like happened nothing.
But on the other side someone’s heart will be broken
That the person he always remembered had abandoned you.

“And don’t dare to deny it cause it’s true”



"Questions"

Why the time is moving so slow?
Do I have the answer for something I don’t know?
What am I doing in this forgotten place?
Am I trying to finish this endless chase?

Will I ever find my inner peace?
Do I really have to cease?
Will I fall into darkness?
Or will I find my happiness?

Will I manage something to achieve?
Am I really so naïve?
Tell me what did I do wrong?
Am I weak or am I strong?

Is there something I can believe?
Is there something I can receive?
Can I really go away?
Or do I really have to stay?

Will I die soon enough?
Is my life like big fake bluff?
Do you think I’m so confused?
Is my life really that badly bruised?

Ah… Fuck it I don’t know,
The answers aren’t falling like the snow.
This will take a little bit of time.
So sit back and wait for my rhyme.



"Answers"

The time moves so slowly because I’m bored,
But there is still much to be explored.
I’m just trying to survive, trying to exist,
Well it is impossible to survive through this mist.

I will never do it on my own.
I will fight this time, but not alone.
Yes I will fall if I go off the path,
Never if someone encourages my wrath.

I will manage if I really try.
I’m naïve, there’s no deny.
Maybe there is something I did wrong,
I’m not weak, or rather strong.

If it’s really worth it
I won’t deny and accept it.
I think that won’t change a bit
Cause I still think that I don’t fit.

Time will show my destiny,
But still I don’t know or guarantee,
That all my life I will stay sane
Or feel the pain going through my vein.

So what? Nothing changed…
I got the answers but still feeling strange.
Time will move on by itself,
My life still will be like an empty shelf.


"Try to find you answers for those questions"



"Changes"

With a question came this day,
Why am I doing this anyway?
There are millions of things I can do,
By myself or with you.

I think I can manage them all,
This time I’m not afraid of the fall.
There are people that will support me,
This time it’s the true me that you see.

No more darkness, no more…
So let’s just settle the score,
I will try to get my elf in control,
It’s time to fill that empty hole.

Time to find what it is truly like,
Finding myself or hit the hike.
Time to wash away the lies,
So I can see the clean blue skies.

I have to enjoy life instead of hating it,
Time to change the looks, the outfit.
There are millions of reasons to live,
All what I have to do is find the motive.

“This is not me anymore, this is someone else”



“Desire to kill”
Horrible thoughts visit my mind,
These thoughts make me blind.
They keep spreading like a hurricane
But don’t worry you won’t feel the pain.

You will hear the sound of the closing bolt,
Don’t take it personally it’s not your fault.
It’s only that I have a passion to kill,
It’s most likely the biggest thrill.

The sound of the bursting bullet,
The view of the flesh ripping pellet,
Makes me all excited and wishing for more,
There will be some things that I will have to ignore.

Feelings will have to wait for a while.
I will do it gentile, with style,
So that everyone can see
That it was made by me.

You will be most likely going down the street,
Just going somewhere looking down at your feet…
There won’t be a sound or a flash,
No chances to run or even to dash.

Everything is prepared; my finger is on the trigger.
Waiting for the moment the pressure will grow bigger.
I could not help it… the bullet is on the way
Like an eagle going after its prey.

It will penetrate your body like nothing was there.
Just for showing that I really care,
I will give you one more in the heart.
It’s all for now, but for the end it’s only a start.